2012 eh? For me, it was pretty big shift from one thing to another. Only one major thing happened, and aside from that everything else sucked, hell the major thing kinda sucked too. Can I live an exciting year with no disappointments and happiness any time soon?

Anyway, where do I start. I always say that 2008 onwards my life consistently spiraled downwards. Don’t get me wrong, good things happened. But it just wasn’t enough to counter what was happening overall. I still think this way now tbh, but I know I just gotta work through this year, one final hurdle and things will finally look a bit brighter (minus a few things).

So this downward spiral continued to do so during 2012 too, but I definitely was working towards something good, that being university. The big life changer. 

I pretty much aced through my first year in college without too much issue, but the second year was a real kick up the butt. I knew if I didn’t get into my uni of choice I would never have been happy with myself. My life got to the point where there was nothing else for me to look forward to. I have very few friends here, and the friends I do have I didn’t seem to be as close with them as I would have wanted to. But alas, that’s just life for you.

But going to university would mean I lived away, starting anew! I could make brand new friends! It’s like the perfect thing I needed to get me out of this rut I seemed to be stuck in. It was the only thing I wanted, and so I stopped for nothing to get in. Low and behold, all that hard work paid off and I got into my university of choice, Kent. All the crappyness I had to deal with living at home and stuff was gone. It really did feel like I started life with a fresh new start.

Boy what a start. My accommodation was pretty much perfect (bar the distance to the university, but it’s still better then living off campus!) and I lucked out by finding an amazing group of people to call friends, a group I can really feel I belong to. I thought it’d be hard to get a long with people, being how I am and not having common interests but I somehow made it work. I even started to go clubbing and stuff which for me, was pretty much a brand new experience.

Unfortunately, if you’ve been following me for awhile you’ll know that my university life hasn’t exactly been as great as I wanted it to be. The main reason I’m there is becoming a huge issue for me, which is the course I decided to take. I’m not going to talk about it too much because I’m kinda tired of talking about it/I’ve already talked about it a lot in the past on my blog. Feel free if you’re interested to check out my ‘life adventures’ link on my blog for more info. I’ve been reblogging most, if not all my posts from my uni blog on there anyway. 

But to sum it up, I hate my course, I’m struggling big time and it seems the only people who are doing okay with it are people with prior knowledge to the stuff…Which I really don’t have! Before I decided to do Computer Science I really, really, really wanted to do Multimedia Tech and Design. But I decided against it due to me actually being able to get onto a Computer Science course as the employment prospects were amazing. That was honestly my only deciding factor against Multimedia, and oh man it really shouldn’t have. I’d rather have a degree with a good grade and possible job prospects than struggle my way through 4 years of this and not get a good grade with something I am slowly beginning to despise. 

I think another point to add to this, is that I’m not really friends with anyone on the course. I talk to a few people, sure. But we’re not close enough to hang out and talk about the assignments or if I need help or vice versa. If I did, I think I’d look at the course a lot differently. I like the idea of Computer Science, it was at the end of my ‘education path’ for years. It was something I pictured myself doing years ago. But now, I’m willing to spend an extra year to change course to Multimedia. Not gonna lie, I’ve spent/going to spend a lot of my life in education lmfao. But it should all be worth it in the end.

So what do I wanna achieve this year/New years resolutions?

  • Well, passing this year will be helpful xD 
  • I’m already working out a crap ton more than I used to, so I wanna keep that up
  • I need to eat more. A hell of a lot more. I think it’s hilarious how when I come back home girls think I’ve lost weight, whereas all the guys think I’ve gained weight. I gained btw. 
  • Find things that’ll actually make me happy, there has to be more out thereee :/ It’s so depressing knowing how close I am to living a truely happy life.
  • Watch/play more stuff, I’ve been slacking so much in this department, but work comes first ofc so I can’t really help it
  • Fix my sleeping pattern, sorta on it…
That’s about it really, pretty depressing as there isn’t anything exciting on there…

Other than going to university, nothing interesting has even happened this year. Sad thing is, I think from here on life will really dwindle down to boring stuff. Unless I magically get a girlfriend which I sincerely doubt will happen anytime soon. So that’s it really, not much else to say. Let’s just hope this year goes okay and a lot more calmer. 

Regardless, happy new year everyone! I hope yours will be much more exciting than mine! 

Lez go 2013.

I’ll tell you this now

Sugar free Werther’s Originals just aren’t the same :(

oh hey guys

Mah bad

for not rebloggin’ and postin’ my usual crap xD

University has been keeping me real busy! Back to normal soon… I hope! 

Also planning on making a new blog cause a friend demanded that I should about what’s goin’ down over here. So I thought why not.

MORE NEWS TO FOLLOW

SIOHSIRTHRTHASDGAGETG

WHAT KINDA RACIST BULLPLAH IS THIS

University won’t give me my enrollment stuff until they sort out my ‘fee status’. Apparently they think I’m an overseas student….

HOW?!

WHAT?!

Other universities asked nothing of me, I even sent them my passport details. I LIVE HERE FFS, WHY’RE YOU DOING THIS TO MEEEE :’(

They sent me a letter today saying what other details I need to give them…BUT IT MAKES NO SENSE, and I can’t even call them tomorrow cause it’s the official results day. All the clearing people will be hogging up the lines and everything WAHHHHHH

I can’t even get excited about going until I’m enrolled and know my accommodation, this is literally torture

god damnit

It’s crazy, every time I get up and do my hair since I cut it. IT’S DIFFERENT. Go look back at how it was on my birthday compared to this.

S’all crazy mannnn

Why couldn’t this of happened when I went to sleep. IM WIDE AWAKE!

I wouldn’t of been so mad about it if I was allowed to be able to tether my phone, cause I have awesome 3G connection at home. THANKS GIFFGAFF, you guys are awesome but this no tethering thing is so disappointing :(

Depressingggg

Nope, not good enough.

Plan B: Watch as many New Girl episodes as I can until I feel sleepy

okay yup

definitely overdone it today

I feel like I’m gonna puke any second now

oh godddd

stupid body

tempted to just finish it since i’ve got 10 or so minutes left of it to go but

hurha;ouha;rghu;ergh

I just wanted to go downstairs and make a sandwich to eat since I knew I was gonna be up late doing work again.

but no

This family is such a joke sometimes.

Which means

Unbearable temperatures in my loft

Bugs flying in when I have my windows open
(WHY ARE YOU EVEN FLYING THIS HIGH?! IDIOTS)

Having multiple fans on all day everyday :C

and…

moths.

MOTHS.

Already had to annihilate one yesterday. YEAH

I KILLED IT. I DIDN’T WANNA, BUT IT WAS ANNOYING

You see, moths are meant to be attracted to lights right?

Well first, at night I never even have my lights on in my room, cause it generates even more heat and it’s a waste of electricity since I really don’t even need it. So why the hell are they here when they can go bug (LOL, no pun intended if u c wut i did thar) OTHER PEOPLES HOUSES WITH WINDOWS OPEN AND LIGHTS ON! Why me all the way up here?!

Second, the moths around here are all emo like. Srsly, I end up putting ALL MY LIGHTS ON AND THEY STAY HIDDEN IN THE DARK LIKE LITTLE EMO BITCHES. THEY DON’T COME OUT. AT ALL. 

So I have to end up spending an hour chasing it down and getting rid of it. The amount of times I’ve had to just say screw it and sleep downstairs because of them

Ugh

Bloody moths.

It’s 4am now, I haven’t gone to bed at a decent time for this whole week.

Hello again trouble sleeping! 

only 7 days til the A.T. season 4 premiere!!!!

BAH, I still need to catch up :(

“…Flights cancelled at Heathrow…”

I have work tomorrow.